New study shows magic mushrooms repair brain damage caused by extreme trauma

New study shows magic mushrooms repair brain damage caused by extreme trauma

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  1. And they know this, hence it is illegal… just like all other natural cures.

  2. rusirius1111 says:

    Yes and i have been waiting for that day!! Been long in manifesting, sis. But,. here we are…finally.

  3. Chris says:

    thanks for the message on fwh rusirius πŸ™‚ i am ok, got triggered really badly last monday (9th dec). I am sure I was not the only one either. That rage deep down came out badly, lost control – like the other personality coming through. Well thats how it feels somedays!

    • EEVIE says:

      Wow, you’re getting triggered, too .Last friday was hell day. Triggers left and right all day long. Have to be careful about the music we listen to, flashing lights, etc. They are trying to get as many of us as possible now that they are out of time. We are their last hope. lolol Love that. When you are triggered and an alter is trying to take over, don’t fear, don’t get angry. Love that alter. Give it love and it will calm down and work with you. Then you can integrate that alter into your conscious being. πŸ™‚

      • Chris says:

        i snapped out of it luckily before things got really bad. it all goes hand in hand with the ‘dreams’ I get. You, the ultra realistic ones, which turn out to be memories!
        had one the other day about going off to find the robots. I went downstairs in the morning and had an email at 8.48 talking about the finding the robots with the hijacker. Life just keeps getting stranger!

    • EEVIE says:

      hmmm that was about the time i had the berserker alter triggered. and many triggers since then. i know some of us are being triggered left and right at the same times. I know that crowley is part of it. What some of us are doing, Chris is integrating the alters into our consciousness awareness. Working great, too. Not easy, but necessary.

      • Chris says:

        yeah, the beserker :S i know it too well. but have far more control over it, until yesterday though. It went all a bit psycho here but we all snapped out of it thankfully before serious shit happened that would have fucked my lifepath up a huge amount, ie life in prison.. you know the feelings guys, so I need not go over old ground with friends like that. Especially since we just seek the truth, need the knowledge and give the gifts of ourselves to each other πŸ™‚

      • Another trait we share, my sibs…

  4. EEVIE says:

    You are becoming conscious of your real life out of 3d. πŸ™‚ It will become more so until we are completely out of here. Robots? πŸ™‚ You are on serious missions, Chris.
    Blue and i were abducted a few weeks ago and taken to crowley. πŸ™‚ we told him his time is up. ha i heard yesterday that the bush/crowley regime is backing down and negotiating. cool beans!!
    What seems so strange to us now is actually the norm when out of this lying matrix. Don’t fight it and you’ll begin to remember how life was before coming here, how life is supposed to be. Just roll with teh strangeness. I would not be happy if the high strangeness left my life lol

    • Chris says:

      still needing to track down the petite woman (5’2″ish) black/brown hair. I think she might be asian/or at least half. Good with weapons, sub machine guns and butterfly knives. I remember her from so many experiences. The chinese courtyard in a palace with thousands of replicators/robotoids. The strange hyperdimensional school/prison, bit like Escher. You heard of a medical facility called the spiral shell? (S..S..) pretty sure it was crowley related as there were dozens of Michael Prince clones there, which I vaguely remembering I had to fight when I could no longer keep the escapees from being clocked by my chi.
      I remember more now entering my 33 year.. the last 5 years have been interesting to say the least! I must also say that your energy feels pretty familiar too.

  5. EEVIE says:

    lol I was just going to say we have worked together I’m sure. We do abductions as well. Shoe on the other foot. I was very lucid in one abduction. We had abducted about 20-30 people, one of them being my step mother. LOLOL Yeah and we took them to an underwater base, took them inside and programmed them with a “movie’. We were breathing underwater, no help.
    Crowley tried to trigger my alters like mad last thursday thru friday 13th. Hard core triggering attempts. All vehicles that drove by in town that day were red, black or white. lol I remember an oob at that time a black and white checkered floor.
    I”m not familiar with the spiral shell med facility.

    • Spiral shell med facility triggers images…

      • Chris says:

        I am sure that it had an inside spiraling walkway up/down the inside with lots of sub-shells/pod rooms/op. theaters. The middle circle (in section) of the shell structure was open atrium with large vines/plants..pretty sure some growth hormone/off world species growing. Which also probably accounts for a portion of monsanto crop splicing. and heaven knows what else!

      • I see the middle section open as well but I see it more of an oval shape and it’s still a blur on plants but what I see looks like a hospital or a prison with an atrium that you can see all the levels with all the rooms and the chair from where I see this

      • Chris says:

        ah yes yes! oval shaped definitely. I remember the spiralling sub corridors, at side passages, with trip chairs and lots of humans, clones (spec. James Casbolt/Michael Prince in this instance). If you were there and feel it was somewhat against your will then I might well have given you a hand getting out..?

      • Wow! That’s amazing… I don’t know if I was strapped or weighted magnetically or if centripetal force was used but I remember the lab coats and the clip boards and I had friends in those rooms… human and non-human…

      • Chris says:

        I get the feeling that I come back time and time again to help restore the balance and make sure the experiment/experience of earth for all, is as per the original plan. happens that after the destruction of tiamat which was great indeed. Many brother and sisters were lost in the many battles.. the casualties on both sides immense. The stability of the solar system and the course of the spiritual evolution (half way with darwin, the lie.. light inside everybody πŸ™‚ and mirrored eil – electromagnetism inside living.. ) of earth were upset. the planet, the shining one Lucifer was destroyed raining water down on earth and creating the asteroid belt. as a barrier to shield earth from the tear in the universe we helped with the ‘van Allen’ belt. a barrier outside and inside πŸ™‚
        Eevie the heirachy is a result of the nature of creation. the light and dark expression of consciousness. yeah it is a bit crazy, free will etc. and there are universes without such concepts. you are remembering one as well. there are as you say no religions. they turned the expression of buddhism into something perverted and wrong in parts, just like everything. such is the power of the lie.
        everyone human is equal, everyone humanoid is not however depending on how far along their respective paths they are back to the pure consciousness of creation 12D

      • EEVIE says:

        omg is that where the “fascination” with spirals comes from?

      • Chris says:

        ha! the spirals, the golden sections/ the numbers, nature.. yeah I have been fascinated with it all my life. I work as a draughtsman/structural engineer. Its deep.. so much at ones fingers tips πŸ˜‰ !

  6. Chris says:

    which accounts for why you suddenly asked (or thats how it felt) to me on FWH blog if I was ok. I did not sleep at all the night thurs/fri.
    I certainly remember the island and the white tower overlooking the ocean. We must have swum there as I am sure there was no air support.
    I had a waking dream that fri. if I remember correctly. It was more a reflection in the mirror and about balance and the thousand arms of vishnu.
    Still as long as I don’t wake at 0300 in absolute agony with massive stomach cramping, like they were on fire all will be ok! & the strange shadow creatures looking from the trees.
    The movie stuff reminds me so much of Brave New World, in fact the old bbc programme triggered memories last time I watched it.

  7. EEVIE says:

    I will get back to you asap, Chris .Sorry, gotta run to town.:)

  8. Chris says:

    cool, no probs πŸ™‚
    my spirit guides seem to be pleased that we have made contact.. long time coming apparently.

  9. EEVIE says:

    Evidently we set a time to meet up. πŸ™‚ I know we preplanned like mad before coming back to earth.
    I always follow where my heart/intuition leads me. πŸ™‚ That is how i sensed your situation enough to ask if you were ok. We get no empathy, or real time help on fwh’s site. I do appreciate him and his information. He has helped me many times. He helps, yes, but he will not hold your hand and tell you it’s going to be ok. Most don’t understand the site, full of codes and triggers and must know how to read between the lines so to speak.
    there is so much we do not understand, especially when dealing with clones and un ensouled beings. Personally, my heart tells me that we don’t really remember how souls and clones, etc work. If i was a clone i would not let any of this shit bother me.
    Another thing, they don’t have oobs. Only souls can do that, leave the body.
    Running for a shower. πŸ™‚
    Thanks for getting in contact with me. πŸ™‚

    • Chris says:

      it does get frustrating! fwh is a good guy but I know that he does get a bit pissed at some of the silly questions. Mostly he wants us to figure it all out and to keep the faith. I thank him for helping me and clarifying a few things for sure. I would have gone insane had he not said that i was not having dreams but memories.
      I know you are not a clone πŸ™‚ and I am pretty damn sure I am not either , would not have seen and felt the things I have if I was! or angels whispering in my ears all the time.
      Must get back to the ol’ drawing board and start some work today πŸ™‚
      speak later on & take care.
      Sending much love and light out πŸ™‚

    • Chris says:

      hey Eevie – hows you today? have you been getting some comments left unmoderated on fwh and idylwild?

  10. EEVIE says:

    Hey, Chris! I think their worlds are being shaken like a bad martini. lol
    Yep, lots of comments left unmoderated. I don’t know what is happening with everyone. Kind of funny. The idylwild crap has gotten ridiculous. Using religion? Look the matrix is not just in 3d, it goes all the way to the top, 12d. Why? Because this entire system is the matrix. To be free we have to leave this system entirely. Going to 5d like fwh is still in the matrix. IF it is an hierarchy it is matrix. We are getting out of this whole artificial universe and all it’s realms, dimensions, etc. FWH is trapped here with the biblical god shit as is idylwild. All bullshit lies. Using their religion on peeps is not cool and that is what they are doing. Quoting the fucking bible, yeah. They, the illuminati, wrote the damn thing. ha And, peeps are amazed at the prophecies coming true when the fuckers wrote them to begin with. Blows my mind.

  11. Chris says:

    although the talmud of jmmanuel is a good read. It certainly feels like things have got a tad crazy! the idlywild have still not told me about where a whole page of their posts went to! even though they claim it matters not which universe we are in!
    not to mention fwh seems to be very selective with info, some people ask nearly the same questions as me and I get no reply! probably trying to tell me that I know better and know the answers.
    There is truth in the bible, just not much! I ought to know.. based on a few things which I can p.m you about if ya like (
    feel like a weight has been lifted a little recently too, not sure if it is related to ever expanding rings of lighted consciousness… well we do all need to stick together.. more so if we did not originate on this planet and struggling to cope with a few things.. funny really given all this time of being trapped within the karmic bounds of this planet to still find it strange to adjust sometimes.

  12. Chris says:

    also what happened at the iss recently? i feel I might well have been there in the last couple of weeks.

  13. Chris says:

    this whole 3d reality is kinda ridiculous! they flaunt it in our faces so blatantly all the time and yet so so many refuse to see the truth! I mean come on – Obama wearing a Crowley t-shirt?!! the number of mindless clones/drones/phonies on tv, in the media, thrust lock stock, the lot, in our faces all day long. I imagine it is far worse in the States with that grand illusion of the choices that we get presented in our daily lives. In the great words of George Carlin “there may be 30 choices of bagels, but they are all still bagels”.

  14. Chris says:

    if I am delayed replying it’s because I have kittens due today πŸ˜€ hopefully 4/5 Abyssinian – the mother has been moaning all day and wanting the cling to me all day.. winter solstice kittens

    • EEVIE says:

      How are the kittens, Chris? Were they born on solstice? πŸ™‚

      • Chris says:

        born on 22.12.13 at 10.55 onwards. 3 – 2 boys and a girl. all weighting very well at 120+ g
        lovelynx Abyssinians – check it out. they are beautiful cats from ancient egypt and will defo trigger memories of that time for you if you were there! I was a priest/priestess in many lifetimes

      • Ancient Egypt… volumes…

      • EEVIE says:

        Yay!! Tell them eevie loves them. πŸ™‚
        Egypt? lol Blue and i also have a ton of history in egypt, sumer, all over the cradle of civilization. I wish to have an egyptian cat. πŸ™‚ Hey, Blue, do you remember having a tail and you weren’t a reptilian? And, ;purring? I miss that. It’s so peaceful. πŸ™‚ Cats always oob’d with me when i had cats here.

      • Not only do I remember but the Sphinx has been activated and I’ve been seeing the feline humanoids, myself included, for some time now.. as well as a cross of cat/dog humanoid???… can’t explain it other than that…

    • EEVIE says:

      They are the ones that spoke telepathically to me one night last summer. I saw a ship overhead and damn, what was it they told me? I can’t remember things lately. lol
      I knew you would say you’ve been seeing them, sis. lol

  15. I see these shapes everywhere all the time… is how I map my drive along the slopes to precision… the math I don’t understand but the shapes, yes…

  16. EEVIE says:

    Chris, those ley lines were cleared the last few days. Check again for me, would you, please? πŸ™‚ We cleared them all just a day before solstice, to keep them from using the ley lines for their rituals. Fucked their shit. ha

    • Chris says:

      trust me, the power of Azazel is something else 😦 he came through for sure. i was sick at 2100 hrs, 0000 hrs, 3333hrs.. 😦 they got sleep ,but was kicking and puching etc. in my sleep all night, kept my partner awake all night. i am nr the midsummer layline in uk…

      • Azazel and all the others are posers… only have power if we give it to them… putty in the bosom of the Sacred Mother of Truth… and they know this… it is a family reunion alright.

      • EEVIE says:

        I wish you could have let me know. I don’t put up with their shit and i could have helped you. Don’t suffer and go it alone should something like this happen again. Pisses me off, the bastards……

      • Same here, Chris… If you can manipulate chi, it’s not the energy but the intent.. and you would always win… the thing is not to fight the current but use it against them… bounce it back… it goes through walls, it penetrates anything…

    • EEVIE says:

      Listen to Blue, Chris. πŸ™‚ She knows her shit.

    • Chris says:

      ley lines are so much better now thank you so much gals πŸ™‚ X fucked their shit!

  17. EEVIE says:

    Merry Christmas!! I love you Blue and Chris. =) Real family.

    • I love you too, Eevie… you as well, Chris, we’re all related, I’m sure… come on 2014!!!

    • Chris says:

      aww bless ya πŸ™‚ love all too, lots of diamond white and pure purples and pinks. flecked with silver and gold πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚
      fwh told me i needed to meditate on some past memories. Also the solstice triggered search for answers to a memory i have, which he replied to (turns out my partners mother has a friend who worked for ONI at the same time.. no such thing as conincidence.. heed his stuff guys even if it contains some religious stuff, remember that is the game the company plays… and we are all part of it, good/bad/light/dark.. it is the experiences that counts, and the choices and paths hence after.
      Milab training and testing.. they are tapping my chi with implants but i can use it against them. anything that is the truth starts it off so i have my inbuilt truth detector along with my intuition! yay lighted relam
      eevie, had hoped you were ok over the solstic, got really worried today so asked fwh to help with light and then i hear from you guys this ev, bless the universe for it is beautiful πŸ™‚ X

      • EEVIE says:

        Awww, Chris you are so gentle, big loving heart. Thank you. πŸ™‚ I can have your implants removed if you like. Just requires maintenance once they are gone so they aren’t replaced. Maintenance has become very easy lately. Just a passing thought and it’s done. No time involved any longer.
        I do listen to fwh. he has good info that is relevant if you truly understand what is going on to begin with. Idylwild? Jokesters if you ask me. lol
        Thank you for your caring, Chris. It means much to me because i know it is real.

      • I stopped following fwh/idylwild because it seemed Duncan was the only target as of late and I got to wanting to puke… and so I’m over it/them…

      • EEVIE says:

        Yeah, sis they went too far going after Duncan. Hey, i posted on there tonight, see if fwh posts. I posted about people who are clones to contact me if they are high enough vibe and really want a soul. It’s being done all over hte planet!!

      • Awesome! I was offline for a few days so I need to play catch up…

      • Try aluminum sided insulation on your interior walls… whistle as sharp and as loud as you can through your blow hole chakra if you can… if not, a sharp tooter every now and then gives them a good zap… start harvesting your own chi.. everything they do, do yourself… you’ll be so powerful they won’t be able to approach you… remote view them sometime… go right to the source… flip around like your kitties do to the micey… if you feel the motor in your gut, turn it on…. not so easy to shut off, though… your sis always (

  18. EEVIE says:

    You know what? They always say to unplug from the matrix to be free. That would be shutting down the chakras and getting rid of the dna. They are both harnesses installed in us for the ultimate control and manipulation. You can still shift and go up in vibe to 5d like FWH, but you’re still trapped. Once the harnesses are gone your source connection becomes incredible!! and, you begin to remember more. and you begin meeting soul family finally! and you work together like magic. ha the chakras and dna were keeping us apart.

    • Programs, Controls, Restraints… done, finished!!!

      • Chris says:

        for sure but this universe is all matrix. yes we need to break out but also go up through the stages to 12D where we originally can from (c.f alex collier in his notes from andromedia about ancient origins of some humans,, us included)

  19. EEVIE says:

    We are from outside this universe. Where we come from no being feeds on another. This is just horrid, so horrid to me that when growing up i barely ate. It was beyond my ability to cope with. πŸ™‚ We don’t have hierarchies, or ascended masters where we are from. No religions. No one is stationed above another. This place we are in is worse than any nightmare i could conceive of and i have a very vivid imagination. πŸ™‚ There are no lessons, no learning to be done. That’s all a crock of old shit. No graduations. We are simply everything at once. i don’t know how to explain it. We are complete, fulfilled. Our horror at this universe was go great we had ot help.

    • Yes, Eevie. We are sovereign on every level. No one can impose anything, even learning… everything is choice (free will).. this is what has been hijacked and continues minute by minute… we only have to say NO, STOP, and it’s done… because we are sovereign… if there is a contract then show me the proof.. nothing assumed… this is how it is on other planets and we are the tragedy of the matrix hologram reality…

  20. EEVIE says:

    Blue, yes they are the laughing ones!! I could not find where to post this. I am so lost on this thread. lolol wish we had a chat room.

    • Maybe we should start a chat room…

    • No wonder they’re always smiling… I think I know who one of them is… it just hit me in the gut… they were listening/observing the whole time… yay!!!

      • Chris says:

        blue you have defo met one of my guides. old man, goes by nickname avi.. cant give his fullname here for protection etc. πŸ™‚
        chat room would be great! lol old school telnet days πŸ™‚

      • chat room works faster… convenient and opens up the conversation for our brothers and sisters to join in.. we need to band together… we’re scattered pieces of a puzzle… no need for disclosure.. avi can read my energy… and I am remembering something else now about root words and names… mine is mar-vel, ar-el-mar, marvelus… this is what comes to me… they are roots if a tree..

      • I’ve drawn a few green man types, sage types.. a recent one too… I’d have to send it to you… also the tree spirits… they are older than time..

    • EEVIE says:

      yes, Blue!!! WE are pieces of a puzzle that solve everything when we come together!! How do i go about getting this going? I’ve not done anything like this yet. ha

  21. EEVIE says:

    Oh yeah!! Got it. πŸ™‚ So that was hte odd look the thundercats have.

  22. EEVIE says:

    Playing a little catchup myself, sis. Love you.

  23. EEVIE says:

    I like that idea. We can start a chatroom here, or else where.

  24. EEVIE says:

    7 M class flares the last 48 hours things are about to get interesting. hehe

  25. EEVIE says:

    Have to clue me in just a tad, Blue. I’m buggered this evening. sorry, sis. lol
    About the Lyran cat peeps. pashat?

    • The one I speak of is an entity that communicated with me telepathically… they said they would be showing up… they are related to us… all this is a family reunion… of all types… all bloodlines…

      • EEVIE says:

        I have to stop being so emotional. I read that and a picture flashed into my mind, group pic of everyone smiling and waving. damn crying again. thank you, sis. I really needed that. πŸ™‚

      • You’re welcome… always synch’d

      • Chris says:

        i was in floods of tears earlier with huge amounts of energy rushing up and down my spine and my sacral chakra was pulling like crazy. For a man i do like a good cry every now and then. Very cathartic πŸ™‚

      • Well since you brought it up, I am an expert on crying and it has great power and significance… it is a song, an affirmation, a cleansing, a purging, a declaration, a prayer and a mantra that opens doorways and closers others.. so not to worry about the cabal or any of those flim flam propaganda… it’s done!!! Cry all you want and I will cry with you and sing them mothers out of town… in fact they transform from the beauty that is the truth… I AM The Weeping Willow… The Mother Tree… my roots are connected to you… our hearts beat as one.. all of us… we should cry and tell them it’s done and all is forgiven… I did this already but I need you both and all of our brothers and sisters to help me… I’m so bleeping tired… exhausted… let’s cry and pray them the truth…

      • EEVIE says:

        You are a whole man, Chris, a balanced being. πŸ™‚ I think you are just precious. Thank you for being open with your feelings and experiences. I find that hardest thing for most to do and that’s allow themselves to feel vulnerable. Tho it is freeing. πŸ˜‰
        come to think of it……haha….who has experiences more vulnerability than a milab super soldier abductee? Kind of our “line of work and specialty”. lol

    • EEVIE says:

      That is just awesome, sis. Beautiful. thank you. and, i will cry with you. πŸ™‚ We all have to pick up our end of things. I agree. Too few have been carrying the load. You know all you have to do is give the word, Blue. and i’m there. I am up to my eyeballs in reminding some how to clear and set up protection. lol The biggest hurdle and it’s the whole thing really, is trusting themselves. but, it’s better to take time and help them remember these things than to kill oneself doing it for them. so, yeah, i hear you. πŸ™‚ I’m on it.

      • Chris says:

        eevie, gosh the emotion this ev! i wanna cry and laugh so much about all this with you guys. yeah milab supersoldiers. the most vulnerable, strongest, empathic, psychic, intuitive loving souls when we are all complete and not being triggered!

      • Chris says:

        we gotta look out for each other double so now as well. FWH gave me a heads up saying they will try to replace our implants etc. that are failing as we are raising our energy levels so far beyond their comprehensions πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€ big fuck you negative guys – go shit some darkness elsewhere.

  26. EEVIE says:

    my feet are on fire, heat is rushing up my body, i can’t stand to speak. it reverbrates back thru my head and confuses me. it’s garbled.

  27. Chris says:

    tarot was on fire with loads of major arcana this ev

  28. EEVIE says:

    Yeah, i keep running into tarot tonight. I have a copy of hte old original french deck. got it while i was there. πŸ™‚ I gotta look now. lol
    lol Chris, you are having good time!! lolol Love it!! About time! Yes, i love the high strangeness, too. I’m getting the heat rushes, too. my feet are on fire. lol
    Yes!! We need a good old fashioned chat room!! I am so lost on this damn page. lol

  29. we can chat on Skype no video or voice required.. we can set up times

  30. EEVIE says:

    really? I had no idea. πŸ™‚ I”m not familiar with skype. I’ve not used it much and it was always someone elses.

  31. EEVIE says:

    I know the tree spirits well. πŸ™‚

    • Chris says:

      i met jack of the green a couple of years back in a old bothy (magic gathering) used by crowley of all people! it was outside froome, nr Glastonbury (that energy grid again!)
      got a pic of one of my guides somewhere, probably on facebook that i drew a few years ago too.

  32. Chris says:

    i love your thinking blue πŸ™‚ although i look not that dissimilar to my avatar, just not quite that grey yet! ha!
    whale of a time this ev! it has been one great day. fwh took a massive weight off my shoulders about loads of memories, feelings so I am in hyper babble mode at the moment.
    blue, avi waves at both you two πŸ™‚ big grins. all cool
    i am uk, so 7/8hrs time difference?

  33. EEVIE says:

    Yep, i know where you are. lol miss it. It’s just going to keep getting better, Chris. I am happy for you!

  34. Off topic? Do either of you have a fascination or significant event involving a clown at an early age?

  35. EEVIE says:

    Blue, i need to know more about your name, how you came about it, please. Doesn’t have to be tonight. I know you have catch up to do. πŸ™‚

  36. EEVIE says:

    Just found this, Chris. Sorry. Yes, i will get in contact with Phoenix as soon as she has rested and she will contact you, ok? πŸ™‚

    • Chris says:

      ok cool, she can either do it here or via my email address –
      ( outlook has been hacked the last couple of days so i can only receive but not send.. so much has been disabled)

      • EEVIE says:

        hacked? I’m so sorry. wtf? i think he’s being screwed with, sis. I’ll copy your email to her and send you one so you’ll have mine. πŸ™‚

      • We’re honorary members of that club… what’s one more?

      • Chris says:

        yeah it is a little strange. will see what a reinstall will do. just part and parcel I guess of our experiences one way or another. Ripples of the surface of the pond that is the universe, creation, finite in bounds of known knowledge and wisdom. infinite in experience and expression.
        not too fussed. Need to change over over original email to new one (the gmail one) for my work. Which is, fingers crossed, flourishing.

      • Waves of abundance your way… give it 6 months to fruition… seedlings much sooner..

  37. Chris says:

    speaking of cats, i am a double leo, sun and moon

  38. EEVIE says:

    I do not like clowns, Blue. creepy guys.

  39. Chris says:

    the cat the just gave birth is called isis. i have a 9 month old kitten called delilah as well who rides my shoulders

  40. EEVIE says:

    i had a black cat named Isis, well my daughter’s really. but she was my familiar. Miss her so much.
    Yes, we know the old ground quite well, Chris. I’ve got the berserker mostly under control. the one that got me after that was the anorexic saboteur. Nearly killed my truck. lolol

    • Chris says:

      yeah i had that in parts, refusing to eat in a bid, defiance against my body for things. You know I have never seen an xray of my body, inspite of everything that has happened scars both wrists, both ankles, on my side (lhs they say chicken pox, my arse!. on my head leading to a balding patch, around my crown chakra. still got the beard though lol!
      i struggled for years with alcholic self sabotage, i still have sabotage from lack of inner self worth and belief/faith.. also the trickster and the one that tells you that you are insane/mad/etc. leading to nervous breakdowns. at one point, well several my parents thought they would have to section..not understanding or refusing to see or hear.. mum loosing her hearing on one ear25 year ago for not hearing what i was saying as a small child ~5… thats when the blanks start in memory.. (interestingly the music has just changed to a bit of a disharmonious rythem when i wrote the word blanks..). used to ‘sleep’ with my eyes open.. freaked the folks out!

      • Darn, I always slept with my eyes open if I ever slept at all…

      • EEVIE says:

        My daughter always slept with her eyes open. πŸ™‚ Freaks everyone out.
        I am so full of electricity, or something. I’m either getting zapped or doing the zapping. My hair? lolol total electric!
        I have odd things happen when i type. sometimes it will be something totally different than the subject matter. won’t even know i typed it till i read it.
        had a few nervous breakdowns, too. self medicated with prescription pills that i usually got off a dealer. I just smoke my weed now. My spiritual liberator. πŸ™‚

      • All the same happens to me… I don’t recognize what I typed or wrote a lot of the time…

    • My black snookums is Sasha (female)

  41. Chris says:

    lovely name

  42. EEVIE says:

    Ever find yourself in a typical reptilian setup, you’re totally lucid. You feign ignorance of who and what they are. They aren’t fooled. The main one, the tallest one who is always in command stood in front of me. I told myself i would remain conscious, but didn’t. as soon as he touched me i went out like a light. i think this was astral. i don’t understand going out like that. don’t remember anything else.

    • Chris says:

      i dont really remember. It is usually just this blank blackness, missing time. Like you close your eyes at night and suddenly its morning again. & you know that the time is all fucked up!

      • EEVIE says:

        I hear you!! I have come to in some strange places not knowing where i was, what day it was, what time, etc. Most of my life. πŸ™‚ I would try to understand what was happening, but had no idea. They have even used my cellphone to trigger me while i’m out shopping and shit. I don’t have a phone now, so they use songs and such. I stay away from classic rock. It’s running over with triggers.

      • For me I could be sitting or doing whatever and if I close my eyes, that’s it…

    • One with an alligator snout like Sebekh shifted from human as a rabbi to true form and gave me a (puzzle) box.

  43. EEVIE says:

    πŸ™‚ Most welcome on the ley lines, Chris.

  44. EEVIE says:

    I forgot to mention that alters don’t always take over. Some of them are more subtle. So much so we think it is part of us. Since learning this i know when they are “looking out of my eyes with me”. They are on deck so to speak waiting for a trigger.

  45. EEVIE says:

    Thank you for saying so, Chris! Recently, Blue sent me a link to james rinks site. I was reading over the different posts and found i had been there before and left comments. I couldn’t delete them, so i explained to james what had happened. He thought it was a timeline change, possibly, but at the same time what i posted was stupid as hell. lolol didn’t even make sense.

  46. EEVIE says:

    I can’t find where you posted. sorry. πŸ™‚
    I nodded off many times yesterday and last night. What i call the narcoleptic oobs. I remember one in particular while i was in europe. I was riding down the highway, nodded out and found myself in another body calling off a hit on someone. I was talking to the hitmen i guess, 2 of them. but, kept someone from getting murdered that day and i don’t know if that was a good thing, or not. you know?

  47. EEVIE says:

    Hey, sis. I couldn’t go see mr banks even if i wanted to. lolol They would have to haul me out of the theater. It’s that over developed sense of justice. I would listen to the people, not the media for sure. He controlled the media about himself. His company was run on communist lines. No one received credit for a thing except him. Even for the artwork done by others. His signature is on them.

  48. Chris says:

    blue – when you were in the spiral shell medical facility, do you remember the man who opened your cell door..?

    • I don’t remember that at all… I remember being in the chair and communicating telepathically with the others in the cells.. I don’t remember the escape… but I also see an underground base of et types were “we” blew the doors open with our minds but I only have flashes there too

  49. EEVIE says:

    Do you remember his name, Chris, or what he looked like?

    • Chris says:

      i think it was me! but since i rarely get to see myself just wanted to see if it resonated with you

      • EEVIE says:

        Oh wow. I don’t know what you look like, Chris. lol but, yeah it makes sense. I can’t wait to hear from Blue on this. It is resonating, but i don’t have the memories you 2 do about it. white spiral shell i remember, but that is it.
        Blue, i keep wanting to put edgy here. any thoughts on that?

      • Sorry, I was away.. haven’t read the last strings but I had to log on because I feel a tremendous tug and I know it’s you two… so I’m here now… huge electric surge (powerful and delightful) I have to log off for a bit but I will be back on in about an hour if you both will be available… man it’s strong… I feel alive!!! I’ll see what I can read now… I-SIS

      • Chris says:

        if only there was a way in which I could transfers my memories to you of the event. I know we were escaping from it. Not exactly sure how many there were of us, but it was defo us and a couple of others – 2 children at least, a tall woman with grey/blonde hair who struck me as knowledgeable..

      • All faces are a blur, my vision is blurry and I can only see from shoulders downward, don’t know if blindfolded or not, drugs were used, I have to look up to see above and can only see chests and uniforms and lab coats, clipboards, tables, folders, other children, loud screams, rustlings and me struggling for control.. definitely maglev tech, centripetal vacuum??? I don’t even know how to really describe only know how it feels… I’ve felt this hundreds of times since I was a toddler or perhaps earlier… this makes me sick to my stomach…

  50. Chris says:

    hahahaha! they have banned me from godlikeproductions! ip block.. seems like they are getting miffed at us after last nights huge amount of energy we generated together! πŸ˜€

  51. Chris says:

    I could not have asked for a better christmas πŸ˜€

    • EEVIE says:

      lol You are so right!! I am happy today and not because of the holiday. πŸ™‚ We have connected, our family is coming back together. It doesn’t get any sweeter than that.
      I have to share this. I”ve always known that when certain people are awake and aware and they come into contact with their family who is also awake and aware, the energy is amped beyond compare. It’s even hinted at from back in the 60s till now in sci/fis, cartoons, etc. WE experienced this last night!! We, family, are exponential energy when we are of like heart adn mind. πŸ™‚

      • Chris says:

        yay! definitely, 100% the energy has been just magical since we connected all together last night! awesome. Words can not quite describe the emotions and feelings.
        & to have the shared memories as well – all I can say is 2014, bring it on!

      • Just chimin’ in… the energy, yes, is amped… loving it… homecoming… finally, damn it!

      • EEVIE says:

        πŸ™‚ Yeah this ride has become a bit wild. lolol Homestretch!!

  52. Chris says:

    & share away πŸ˜€

  53. EEVIE says:

    lol We are wrapping this age up and seems the very end is the best of all! We have to stay connected. i am beyond thankful for the internet. πŸ™‚ I”ve been wanting to start a site for us. I’m looking into it. It is important that we connect adn share. Everyone is a piece of the puzzle. πŸ™‚

  54. EEVIE says:

    Chris, i got in just fine. Used to go there a long time ago. I noticed a theme running in some sites, i now call lit a program that is set up by military/govt/cia, some abc group and it is used to not only lead people astray but to shut people like us down. We are being called truthers now. The idiots in these communities are calling us a truth cult. LOLOLOL Yeah, right ms and mr new age religion. ha

    • Chris says:

      haha! i hardly ever visit now.. so well known contelpro, i just found it amusing that the one time I do they block me in some childish game. More fool them!
      website sounds great! maybe we can find a chatroom template as well – we need it! I could spend a lifetime talking to you and that would still not be enough ‘time’
      they can try and compartmentalize me all they like, i will just carry on changing inspite and regardless of πŸ˜€
      I see you used to read Indian in the Machine.. and phoenix journals?
      he is suspect hon… i have a distinct memory of him involved with milab abductions.. or training.. I can’t quite rememeber at the moment.
      It feels more like the middle east, iraqi.. northern iragi, where the stargate is.. there is a temporary base held by delta force/black marines.. seems the i was wanted to get hold of the crystal chip that has locking coordinates on it for the gate address, very sg-1 i know.. sometimes I half wonder if they were parodying us all!
      eevie, think of my avatar but with brown hair and beard and that is what I look like..
      right dr. who starts soon! lets not get triggered this ev!!
      speak a bit later on πŸ™‚ will be email otherwise πŸ™‚
      hugs, love and light to one and all! tis truly the season to be happy πŸ˜€

      remember – we are stronger together than we are apart.. i cant remember what it is in sanskrit though (past lives thing,..,) although i draw it on the floor around souls in a big circle.. does that resonate with you two? seen me drawing it on a wall and walking through like a portal? you have done it too…?

      • EEVIE says:

        Oh yeah and make them “in the sky” like when i navigate a ship. πŸ™‚ I remember being able to do so much with so little effort.
        Thank you for the warning on indian. I know what he is. I’ve been keeping an eye on him. I play along,little dumbass. πŸ™‚ Yes, there is a “danger” to him.
        SG? Yes they emulate our experiences. πŸ™‚
        Enjoy your day, Chris. πŸ™‚ Love you.

      • EEVIE says:

        Your avatar is you and very familiar. I had to blow it up to see it. lol my eyes the last few years stay so blurred.

      • I think I know the symbol… Stanga mentions this in her videos… I know this, yes… the symbols flip to make other symbols like a language… variation of om symbol… I believe this is Naga energy…

      • the symbols on walls portals yes…

  55. EEVIE says:

    lol I know, Blue. 5 minutes ago? I have no concept of linear time. I think once we completely ditch linear time our confusion and memory probs will clear up like magic. πŸ™‚

  56. EEVIE says:

    I”m down for a good party and lots of happy, celebratory dancing!

  57. EEVIE says:

    Yes, she will be in touch in a few days. She is exhausted right now. Been doing too much. πŸ™‚

  58. rusirius1111 says:

    Chris, when you puked up clear liquid, what other symptoms did you have? Woke up this morning, head screaming again, like around the outline of the brain. like when they fuck wiht my memories and such. Puked up clear liquid. last time it was black goo. I feel like hell. still nauseated, retching and head hurting.

  59. rusirius1111 says:

    Thank you, Chris. I have all that shit. We were in some woods last night…, Blue, me. Very dark, things were fucked up, i don’t really understand. but, we were in a desperate situation.
    Blue, your energy is whacky and you are so freaking run down.
    Chris, you are tired, but your energy has held, tho it is low.
    I don’t know what occurred last night, but damn……..

    • Chris says:

      dont worry eevie, you dont have the virus! it is you cleansing the energy from last night. yeah it was fucking bad, woke up feeling awful this morning.
      i think they tried resetting all our implants, we fought back and won, otherwise we would have been stuck..

      • rusirius1111 says:

        You are a rock in this storm, Chris. I hope you can feel/sense my heartfelt thanks. πŸ™‚ Devi worked on you last night i think. I need to check on her now. Last time she intervened she was attacked by crowley and get this….666 of his minions. He likes that number…dumbass.
        Well, if we had any doubts about being in this together they should be settled now. πŸ™‚ Never had any doubts, feeble attempt at humor. ha

      • rusirius1111 says:

        And, i forgot to actually say it. thank you. πŸ™‚

  60. rusirius1111 says:

    Werewolves there……..Loki burning in my mind…….222 keeps coming up
    body temp is bouncing up and down. no fever. freezing, or burning up
    anyone know what the werewolf virus symptoms are? Blue, do you remember anything about it, please?

  61. Chris says:

    ok, i resonated far too much with that, crying, feeling so sick..
    you know who Loki really is… & we go back a long way and he is still pissed at me…

    • rusirius1111 says:

      We, Loki and I, have been “talking” and i’m attempting to right things. Not even sure exactly what the wrong is, but apparently we both, you and i, were/are involved. I don’t remember who Loki really is. i know i should, but consciously…my memories have been so fucked with all my life. I know i know him very well.

  62. Chris says:

    i am crying now!

  63. Chris says:

    dont be sorry! it just means that it is truth and i am resonating with it. cathartic, since I feel a little violated by last night, yeah energy low, like they tried syphoning it off me.. but I am still here! time to regroup, consolidate and work on building my energy again. Mucho gracias to Devi for me eevie

  64. rusirius1111 says:

    I understand.
    Violated is the right word. I have to wonder what happened to make US feel violated, you know? lol i mean after what we have been thru during our lives? all i can say is wow at what caused this feeling so strongly.
    Yes, it is time to regroup…thank you for your affirmations.
    I will pass it on to Devi/Phoenix. πŸ™‚

  65. Chris says:

    great yet more references to hell going through my head. Its been highway to hell and metallica in my head all day :S yet more confirmation about Loki.. what did he have to say anyhow? how are we involved? i would ahve thought there would be other people more worthwhile to get at…

  66. Chris says:

    & yes I feel your energy and thanks with me πŸ™‚ I will treasure that in my darkest hours. The flame burns bright without a flicker in my heart

  67. rusirius1111 says:

    Even fwh won’t tell us who we are and every time i ask i get the reply, maybe your home is hell, or what if you’re from hell and not just from him I used to laugh about it, but Hel keeps coming up and Loki is in my mind. I don’t understand. I am slow to grasp things sometimes, Blue can tell you. and, i want to from Blue about Loki, her ties if any. Something very big here. adn, we have to remember, figure this out.
    I wonder if it has to do with last night in any way….
    You are so precious, Chris. Thank you. πŸ™‚

  68. rusirius1111 says:

    what’s up with the date and time on the comments? It isn’t the 27th yet.
    I”ve barely hung onto mine lately, Blue.

  69. rusirius1111 says:

    Not Chris’ time. He’s about 6-7 hours behind us. lol but, i’ve noticed it lately and yeah i’ve seen it on fwh as well.
    5d is never boring!! πŸ™‚

  70. rusirius1111 says:

    Loki upholds the feminine. He was his stepmother’s son rather than his stepfather’s son. He honored the feminine. I can’t see him as evil.

  71. Chris says:

    the date and time are for my posts, yeah I think I must have pulled you both into my timestream..

    • it’s ok by me… I’m used to it… I don’t mind the ride, actually…

      • Chris says:

        me too, been happening for much of my life anyhow! missing time, jumping time, my partner and I both lost two hours a few months back, we started watching a few episodes of something (cant remember, could have been charmed, or fringe..or the seeker of truth, my current fav.!) and 2/3 hrs flew by in what ought to have been 1/2 hr.. btw she was nicknamed spirit by her peers playing d&d.. we had quite a ride when we first met..she saw me from a past life the first time and it freaked her out, she could not talk to me the whole day! lucky her friend was there lol!

  72. Chris says:

    test tube babies, transhumanistic society, yeah anything with a soul purged.. but what about the ghost in the machine.. they are more deus ex machina though

  73. Chris says:

    i have no idea what they wanted of me at that estate house, but i remember the feeling of the interior.. a bit like the house at the opening of resident evil.. damn that referencing again

    • yes, exactly like that mansion/estate… sorry… same here on the resident evil references, the hive, the underground facility, the red queen, makes me want to puke…

      • Chris says:

        speaking of computers and text on screens, do your eyes sometimes feeling like they misread words and phrases all the time..? like ‘dyslexia’.. for instance i hovered my mouse over outlook (ver. 2003… not a good year for me..) and it said open new milab,,, then when i hovered over again it said open new tab…

      • yes, that happens often…

  74. Chris says:

    yeah i watched the whole thing as was surprisingly passive through it.. same with 28 days later.. although part of me loathes and does not want to see films like that they always seems to bloody resonate with me

  75. Chris says:

    i was stuck in a psychic triangle inside.. three people at the apexs.. that is all I am getting at the moment

  76. rusirius1111 says:

    omg, my left eye has been in many oobs and i have brought something back with me in that eye. an arch angel also punched me in my left eye in the battle of the akashic. fucker. and it has begun twitching when i am stressed, or annoyed.
    Yeah, those 3 fuckers that won’t let me fly within or wihtout. i know them well, Chris. I’m always reading words that aren’t there, or adding words. liek myu fucking typing.
    wow where was i when all this convo was happening? I had no idea all this was here. no emails on them. I was alone all night, wtf?!?

  77. rusirius1111 says:

    something has changed. fucked up and sick as hell, the ex left yesterday to his job, stays there during the week. i coudln’t watch Aubs due to my condition yesterday. i haven’t heard from anyone. i could be lying here dead. lololol not normal, or wasn’t. oh well, i really didin’t want to be disturbed. i treasure my time alone, even in bad condition.

  78. Chris says:

    i had backed up emails from here for two days! before they finally came through. but i could feel your energys so that was cool πŸ™‚

  79. rusirius1111 says:

    well now i am wonderingn if these peeps are still on my timeline.

  80. rusirius1111 says:

    They are going thru your emails, Chris. happens to us, too at times. no emails and then boom! so many of them. i’ve watched the damn things disappear right in front of me before i coudl get to them adn open them. πŸ™‚

  81. Chris says:

    probably :S they clearly follow me as well.. we form our own triangle though dont forget πŸ˜‰

  82. Chris says:

    the phone calls and when you answer nothing.. or three rings and hang up..

  83. rusirius1111 says:

    Loki and wolves…..Loki and wolves.
    I just realized my name here is all capitals. they stand for something.don’t they, an acronym of some kind? lol couldn’t say or spell acronym. kept putting it as anacronym. yeah that probably means somethng as well. shit

  84. rusirius1111 says:

    btw jimmy paige was a crowleyite
    and we all know james. lolol
    guess what’s on tv tonight? thor. hahaha

  85. rusirius1111 says:

    So right, we are our own triangle. probably has them sweating bullets. lol

  86. rusirius1111 says:

    it is teh most frustrating thing to not remember your origins…….who you truly are. everything would make sense if we could just remember.

  87. rusirius1111 says:

    Blue, we seem to be hitting all teh underwater bases lately? omg that is why we were so miserable in the dark woods, cold and wet. or have i mixed shit up? my mind is so scrambled.

  88. rusirius1111 says:

    just remembered, Blue., a few months back i woke up with a small scab at the base of my skull. strange scab. took a long time to completely heal.

  89. Chris says:

    if only! not just thinking and feeling things but having part of you told your are insane, crazy..

  90. Chris says:

    my littelest cat is being so loving at the moment (if only i could type properly, thank goodness for backspace! mind to quick for hands). she wants me to wash her face

  91. rusirius1111 says:

    Chris, that is you on google+!! πŸ™‚ I know your face.

  92. rusirius1111 says:

    Forgot to mention, there are 2 huge black crows that have been following me for a couple of months now. My daughter has seen them. she said, friends of yours, mom? lol

    • crows have always hung around me since I was a little girl…

      • rusirius1111 says:

        πŸ™‚ You, too? I have heard htem talking before and understood what they were saying. they made me laugh outloud. Peeps at work thought i was nuts when i asked them didn’t you hear what the crows said? πŸ™‚
        these 2 crows are huge!! They follow me with their eyes adn talk with each other. they will turn where they are sitting to follow me;. I always smile and talk to them.
        and the one eye,left eye thing. teh wolves, hte Loki, the Odin……………

  93. rusirius1111 says:

    I clicked on fwhs google site adn my left ear started screaming. still going.

  94. Chris says:

    love you all too πŸ˜€

  95. rusirius1111 says:

    damn water heater isnt’ working. sigh…..

  96. rusirius1111 says:

    Devi seems to think the worst of the battles is over for us. She doesn’t have our place here. No one understands but us i think. The battles and missions are more fierce, not easier and the battlefield has moved to our minds and souls.

  97. Chris says:

    what do you mean place here?

  98. Chris says:

    tell Devi her name is funny cos i resonate with it from the past, like couple of thousand years ago during dawn of hinduism

  99. Chris says:

    & the phoenix being rebirth from the fires, me being double fire sign and us all being reborn here and now

  100. Chris says:

    i sat down earlier and my partner had the tv on. so i was channel flicking.. what did i first see on the page – I survived Evil: wolves at the door….

  101. Chris says:

    my pic made you sad because i feel you have seen me held against my will and tortured, most probably. i do know i have a lot of scars on my wrists, ankles & crown of my head.. even for a 3 month premature twin..

  102. Chris says:

    cant do with giving my power again – whether it be forced, coerced or otherwise

  103. rusirius1111 says:

    About Duncan, i got between you and teh energy he was hitting you with. I held up a reflective shield, give it to him instead of to you. Next thing i knew i was hitting him about his head and shoulders with that energy. lolol He’s fine, but he won’t come a calling again.
    and, thor is on…..twice. lolol

  104. rusirius1111 says:

    Chris, this is from Devi in response to what you asked me to tell her. πŸ™‚

    Oh that is so funny eevie. Tell him I totally get him too!!!

  105. Chris says:

    hahaha! she reminds me of a shameness i once knew in central america as well

  106. Chris says:

    yeah i had my hair shaved off for a number of years, i would not necessarily like to have met myself on a dark night..
    also my brother lived in falmouth for a few years.. when i was down there, we were taking a walk along one of the cliff paths and we were passed by 4 black ops team..and this was the middle of the day.. they all looked at me, i could have sworn it was kinda familiar..

  107. Chris says:

    oh and not to forget the 6 orbs the he and i saw fly formation up the road at night in london, turn specifically over our house and fly off fast towawrds the horizon.. no sounds.. just beautiful brilliant orbs

  108. Chris says:

    & i rememebered our neighbour (german/austrian.. nazi youth..not out of choice but still, referening.. in plain sight etc.) had a big weeping willow in his backgarden. with a tall silver willow opposite it

  109. Chris says:

    the elves indeed, found my partners copy of lotr the other week, am going to reread it again soon, after all the other million books!

  110. rusirius1111 says:

    I’ve been rereading lotr as well. πŸ™‚ It’s the true history of the last age. we were there.

  111. Chris says:

    not of earth, but of another planet. fwh did say

    • rusirius1111 says:

      I’ve wondered about that, but honestly, it fits everything. one of the bloodline, rothschild, or the other big one, can’t remember told a bit of history of which they have the truth. he said the humans we know today, the unensouled are the hobbits. no shit. what made bilbo, frodo and sam different is that they had souls. they weren’t complete just growing things and shooting teh shit. you know? like the ones with souls today, we crave more than just living a life of sustenance, food.

      • Chris says:

        awle created the dwarfs out of clay.. and they mined the earth for jewels and riches but where defeated by the dragon..(s) plural, always more than one great dragon!
        still you have your characters though.. all the humans with powers and the meier etc.

      • rusirius1111 says:

        We have had all the beings, creatures spoken of in the trilogy and the other books. teh silmarils are real and tucked away safely in a pocket of another reality. πŸ™‚ Smaug was unusual for a dragon. he was a rogue, even with the ohter dragons. they carry all history,not given to the victor as happens, but facts, uncolored truths.

  112. Chris says:

    i saw the firehorse today (this ev.) when i first looked for a background for google…

  113. rusirius1111 says:

    Gotta run to town and find something to eat. love you and be back.

  114. Chris says:

    see you in the astral realm! love you and stay safe πŸ™‚

  115. rusirius1111 says:

    dyslexia in action again. no, Chris is hours ahead of us, not behind. damn i am so sorry, You guys call me on this shit, please. lol

  116. rusirius1111 says:

    Satan is here on earth. Main royal draco. He has an office in ny city in the goldman sachs building. i kid you not. Just learned this.
    Loki is still locked in chains until he breaks free. all things can change. πŸ™‚

  117. rusirius1111 says:

    lol The zeta reticuli like to smoke large amounts of marijuana. it’s good for them.

  118. rusirius1111 says:

    and, they haven’t cornered the market on liking large amounts of weed. lol remember hte high vibe faery weed? ha
    we have to find another post or something. i was notified that some comments i sent never posted. i think the thread is too long for here and email.

  119. Chris says:

    ok that clip is FULL of triggers :S from the music to the hand gestures, you noticed at around 1min odd she slaps his hand down when he was doing triggers. his pyramid hands at the start.. SO many reporters etc. display that at the start, subconscious triggers before the start of program run.. literally… the ol’ five, four, three, two ,one… quick flash of hands and bang – candidate all ready and programmed to say what you like

    • Yeah, I was surfing videos on empathy… this one was the usual barf… when I can’t stand the video I will put the timestamp to view only… sorry, I should have mentioned so…

  120. rusirius1111 says:

    That shit is every where i look now. damn!

  121. rusirius1111 says:

    I”m having probs eating again, sis. seems the anorexic is braided into different alters.

    • Chris says:

      sending lots of hugs & love Eevie. Yeah I was having some of that today too, but with overeater thrown in as well at other points, just to really try and pull me apart

    • I have that problem of not eating too… only not the physical effects thereof…

      • Chris says:

        yeah i know what you mean. although when i drank i put on loads.. but lost it all in a year (5st odd..).. hamster wheeling definitely!

      • EEVIE says:

        I’ve never been able to gain weight and wish i could, at least a little padding on my bony ass. lol

      • I’ve got hamster wheeling down to a science… barf! Plus I’m always sick to my stomach… who wants to eat then?

      • Chris says:

        lol you can have a bit of mine, i could stand to loose a little again.. more t’ai chi needed

      • there are worst things to be than deliciously plump… like a criminal, a liar, a $2 hooker, a pimp, a rapist, a murder, a politician, and so on… let’s all give ourselves a “bleeping” break…

      • EEVIE says:

        Hey, bare butt bones hurt to sit on. lolol I know. πŸ™‚

      • I feel my butt bones too.. even with the padding…

      • EEVIE says:

        awww man!! now i’ve got nothing to look forward to!! lolol

      • Chris says:

        damn just looked at steam (pc game download site) and far cry 3 – i am sure it is based in part on a.m from plus the story resonates a lot with me.. we are trapped in abandoned medical facility although of course it is not so abandoned.. used to have loads of dreams like that as a child.. also running, shooting, so much war and violence.. :S and i did not even watch that much tv (it was limited) although i did play d&d (vivid imagination and v.high spatial awareness, hence the engineering profession)

      • EEVIE says:

        Ever been in a house like the one in the movie, can’t remember the name, but the guy is trying to get his wife out of hell and the house is in a particular type of shambles? It’s a real place, i’ve been there. I almost vomited when i saw it in the movie, had to turn it.  Last night, speaking aramaic, skulking about in teh desert. Our old stomping grounds. shit we know where everything is buried. lol Moving about in hooded robes, can only speak for myself on what we wore, sorry. lol weird.. all i remember. love the desert at night. it is a reptilian stronghold since the war with iraq via teh good ol nazi regime called america.

      • we didn’t have even the bare minimum growing up…

      • Chris says:

        quite probably been in houses like that before. been on some strange walks i can tell you..! even when drunk.. (massively open crown chakra.. easy prey) like missing so many hours and wondering how the hell i got places i ought to be no wear near. stuff at parties that i know was laced with heaven knows what from probable beta’s etc. – all very brave new world..

      • been there done that… I’m amazed how I was never scared even in my teens to be alone at 4am… I knew I had nothing to worry about??? They were always afraid of me… the black sheep…

      • EEVIE says:

        I’m so sorry, sis. it is not the life you chose before incarnating. we were hijacked at, or just before birth. i’ve seen more of my shit from when i was growing up in mind control. hey, when i broke my back, never had  a broken bone before or since. i landed wiht all my weight on a jagged pipe sticking up out of hte floor. It shoudl have gone thru me and killed me, but it didnt’. it crushed teh vertebrae. they let it heal naturally and it fucked up, so surgery. one week after surgery teh bone had completely grown back and integrated teh titanium. ??? no broken bones and they are little.

      • I’ve never broken a bone in my body… apparently I was stabbed in the back but it didn’t penetrate… I felt only a tap…

      • EEVIE says:

        btw how long did it take to switch hands like that?

      • just one day I decided I was going to do it and I did… it’s not so precise, but I love the energy in it…

      • EEVIE says:

        You are totally amazing you know. πŸ™‚

      • EEVIE says:

        Just teh desire is required. Well, you have inspired me to try again. thought about it recently. apparently it is something necessary for us. but you are always an inspiration to me. and the only reason i keep going sometimes. thanks, sis. Love you ya know. πŸ™‚ So you didn’t die either. wow!! yeah, the pipe didn’t break the skin. that was weird. and can’t tell how many head injuries. concussion? normal. lol

      • yeah, I sliced my skull open when I was a kid… I ran into a broken tree branch… had pieces of wood coming out my head a year later…

      • EEVIE says:

        sis, that is so deja vu…..over and over adn over again. and again…..

      • I’m always here for you and believe it or not, you have been my rock as well, sis… I’m sorry I didn’t tell you sooner… it’s important to tell people how much they mean to you… thank you…

      • EEVIE says:

        Ahhh, Blue. You know i love you. Yeah, we are just alike on that. it’s simply understood between us. and we know it. unsaid verbally, but said thru the heart, the soul πŸ˜‰

      • Chris says:

        πŸ˜€ stomping grounds indeed πŸ˜‰

  122. Chris says:

    just had shower, sent out loads of energy to you

  123. rusirius1111 says:

    Yeah, i’m either overeating, or not eating at all. i cannot find a single aspect of my life that is not screwed with.

  124. Chris says:

    if you go to that place i said.. inside outside.. there is a leather bound book there,, which we can finally read now, since i have the both of you.. you know the one.. you have been seeing it from birth and been searching.. well guess who has it πŸ˜›

    • EEVIE says:

      thought i found it several times. πŸ™‚ ever hopeful. even in waking life i’ve searched for a leather book wiht a particular symbol. I can’t remember hte symbol but i will know it when i see it.  I can see patterns in teh night skies lately that make me tremble. they are like a timing device that i preprogrammed with. signs.

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